I am a slut and a slut always knows the truth about herself
I did something stupid and that led to me ignoring my blog for a very long time. You see I know myself very well… I am a slut and a habitual cheater. I have never been able to help myself. My most recent yet foolish mistake is that again I tried to get into a relationship… and it never works for me. I really and truly do not know how to commit. Perhaps I am tempted too much, perhaps I am defective, or maybe I just want other cocks way too much. I think I am just a slut.
I met a wonderful 38-year-old guy… totally sleazy… very Italian… and an awesome fuck. My perfect type. He wanted to sweet talk and swoon me in order to fuck me and that is my favorite part of any liaison. I just adore that intensity. But then these silly little emotions creep in, and he becomes possessive, jealous, and wants to claim ownership. Huge turn off, especially to a slut!
I tried to play the relationship game. Then I cheated on him with a 21-year-old college boy who lived next door to him. Tsk Tsk… Italian men do have bad tempers. So now I am back to who I am… a woman who doesn’t want love… just sex.
I Like the Seduction of Younger and Shy Men
I like younger men, but usually, I go for the 20-21-year-olds. Any younger than that can be a mixed bag of issues that I don’t typically want to deal with. I do like them to be more mature than their years. But I am picky and very selective. Usually, I look for them wherever I go. I also seek innocence and I have a radar that reads men very well and easily.
There was a new cashier at my local grocery store, where I do all of my shopping. I went through his line and saw his name tag said “Eric”. He had a very clean cut appearance, very neat, and he was also doing his job intensely. I watched him check out the people ahead of me.
At surface level… I could tell he was almost a little geeky, probably shy, but he exuded intelligence too. By looking at him, I knew he was a good student, had made his parents proud, and was probably intimidated by girls. It sounds egotistical but I can spot them right away.
I watched Eric. I noticed his hands, rather larger, his finger nice and long. So I daydreamed a little about how they’d feel inside me. I looked back to his face… he had pretty blue eyes with long lashes but he avoided eye contact with the customers. He was there physically; just not mentally, he was also lost in his own little daydreams. Just like I usually am.
I Plotted my Seduction of Him
When I got up to the register, he made very quick eye contact with me and proceeded to do his job. I leered in at him, almost concentrating on making him feel me staring. Does that work? I sure as hell don’t know, but it I felt like it did. He looked a little younger than I first thought up close, kind of a baby face. I know he’s not experienced someone like me before.
How can I explain it to you? It was his awkwardness that I found arousing. Assuming he had no more than moderate sexual experience with women, I decided I was going to have to teach him some new tricks. That’s how it began, just simply due to my “mood” while shopping on a Saturday afternoon. Poor Eric had no idea what he was in store for.
To Be Continued Soon!
I Must Have a Boy Toy
I wonder if other people’s sex lives are normal. One thing that has changed over the years is that more people do let their “freak-side” out, and we can expose it more on the internet. Thank Goddess for that!
The freak I discovered that lives in me always enjoys younger men. Not that I don’t enjoy the older ones too, but the younger ones are a bit like having a sweet “dessert”. I get the same great rush from fucking a younger man as I do when I cheat on my diet and have a small slice of cake.
I’m not a MILF (aka Mom I’d like to Fuck – in case you don’t know the term) because I don’t have kids and I don’t want them. I am not maternal or the nurturing type, and I don’t want to mother 20 year old guys either. I’m not a cougar, and really I am not that drastically much older then some of the younger men I’ve been with lately. I’m older, but not old for them so luckily I’ve not been turned down.
I Just Like to Play with Younger Men
I’m going to have to come up with some fake names to tell some of these stories since I’ve added a few young lovers to my list. The first intense young lover I had is posted about already in my archives. For a name from now on I am going to call him Scott. That name is so far from his real one so he shouldn’t discover my blog lol. I had toyed around with some men younger then me, but with him there was a distinct age gap and the fling was intense. Actually I still here from him. I have not decided yet if I feel like returning his messages.
Lately I’ve met a few others and had some one night stands which is always cool with me. Sometimes it’s easier, sometimes the sex is only average. For right now I have been traveling a bit for my job and that’s enough. Now that the new year is coming things will settle a bit, and I can get back to posting some clearer details.